Sunday, May 10, 2015

Live Your Dream!

I think we all start off hoping to start changing into that mythical supermodel with the long thin legs, that impossible Barbie waistline and cleavage we always wanted as soon as we embark on Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT)... Meanwhile, it doesn't happen for everyone quite the way we hope it will, and certainly not overnight, if at all. I think it's an unrealistic expectation we all have.

After a lifetime of living inside a shell that doesn't match what we feel we look like on the inside, we want the exterior to match the interior. We feel like beautiful people on the inside, and we want the outside to reflect that image we have been taught from an early age, a woman 'ought' to be.

"I don't think my face is feminine enough". "I don't think I pass". "I look like a dude in a dress"... These are some of the many, many self-critical comments I've heard from many of my sisters over the years. Some of them I've heard crossing my own lips.

Many people tell me I'm a beautiful woman, and these days it's not so much that I believe them, eventually - it's more that it doesn't really matter to me what other people think of my looks anymore. You see, while I am not unappreciative of the compliments people pay me, it really has nothing to do with how others see me - but with how I see myself.